This is me! My name is Candice, I am from Barrie, Ontario Canada 🍁
I have been on the fence about starting a blog for so long. I have a lot to share but with sharing comes vulnerability, I still am not sure I’m ready for it. Aside from confessions, I took a huge liking to graphic novels, comic books and video games. (more so the first two) I suppose my first blog should explain how I got there…
I have struggled with addiction my whole life, whether it was alcohol, drugs, a specific person, shopping or a game on my phone to name a few, it seemed like a never ending cycle. I, just like everyone else, have a red door in my brain. Complete with caution tape and a do not enter sign. For a long time I allowed that door to rule my life. I was never the popular one. I was out spoken, with no filter. I stuck up for the under dog. For the most part I didn’t let people push me around, during my dark times I was manipulative, vulgar and ignorant but you could never deny the compassion and love I had. I was taken advantage of… A lot… Without even noticing until to late. (these stories are for another time) it wasn’t until my most recent issues with addiction, (alcoholism) that I really fell down that black hole. I became a person I simply did not know. She was malicious, she hurt herself and others constantly, wreaking havoc, causing chaos and embarrassment wherever she went.
My life seemed unmanageable and out of control. I woke up in a beautiful hotel room, with a beautiful view, in beautiful Blue Mountain, yet, there wasn’t a single piece of me that was beautiful that morning. I starred at my phone, terrified of what I would find. I decided that day for the 8 millionth time I would never drink again. The difference is that since that day it has been almost one year of sobriety. I am not saying I will never drink again, but I am most definitely content right now.
Back to it.. My anxiety was out of control, withdrawal was horrid. I was the Foh Manager at a restaurant at the time, I yelled a lot, was easily irritated, a real peach!! I was awful. Learning to feel was the worst feeling EVER!!
We all struggle, I have realized that you will always be looking backwards unless you find a reason to step forward. I am excited to share my confessions, books I love, movies, and anything else I am think if or that is possibly requested.
Suggest your favourite graphic novel!!