Nightmares ripped apart my soul Demons in the night glaring at my very existence The funny thing about pain is, it hurts until it doesn’t Numbness takes over My fire douced by trauma Reignited my love I was the storm The thunder The wildfire A hurricane Now, I am numb I am lost I am… Continue reading Incapacitated
Never ending carousel Everything in darkness Terrifying even Malevolence surrounds me Simply going through the motions Never stopping Never ending It was different before The ups never quite made up for the downs I felt incapable of love Unworthy even An object to be objectified Face with no voice Emotionless Spinning uncontrollably Never Ending… … Continue reading Never Ending Carousel
As I sit in bed, wishing that sleep would just come for me already. It crushes every ounce of my being. Five days ago, everything changed. Five days ago, I was different. Five days ago, I was anxious and depressed. Five days ago, I was broken. Five days ago, I was picking up the pieces… Continue reading Five Days Ago
As the sun began to rise she let go. Set free from the atrocities that prisoned her mind. Set free from the demons that shackled her soul. Sadness and sorrow fill every ounce of your being. Remember the way she smiled. Remember the way she loved. Remember the excitement, the joy, the laughter. Remember the… Continue reading Fly High
She watched the curves of his smile, taking in every scar, every imperfection that made him perfect. She memorized his eyes, his lips and the softness of his touch. She imprinted his voice in her mind to replay. She carried the weight of not only her choices, but also his. For everything she knew, for… Continue reading For every moment.
Stay calm they say. Relax they say. You’re over reacting they say. I am fighting a war everyday, some days I win and some days I do not. I am a creature of habit, a never ending pattern of highs and lows. Second guessing every thought before I even have time to process it. Constantly discounting myself… Continue reading Stay Calm, Sounds So Simple
To my children, Although you are too young to understand what I am about to tell you, know that it is so important. You are the center of my universe, you are the single most important thing. I haven’t always been the best mother, I have struggled with addictions, mental health, and self esteem. I have not always… Continue reading An Open Letter To My Children